I guess I am a true gemini in that I need change but the inner me never seeks for it. Now that I am older I find it so hard to have life change. I so miss the days of being a mom and keeping the house on a even keel and having all my sweet little ones around me, learning daily why the Lord allowed me to have each one of them. In those days they taught me so much, not that they don't still do. I find I have had such a hard time letting loose of those precious children and friends. I know that is the Lord's plan and I am so happy they have found people who they love.
Now I must learn it is time for me to move to the next step in life and i am truly trying. It doesn't take much to bring a tear to my eyes when I think of our little family and all the good times I miss, but I am truly trying to do better and love life in the now.
Also it never seems to get any easier to make decissions in life. I always thought that when you get older it gets easier, yea, NO. In all things i have always tried to make decissions based on what I know is right and if the Savior were standing right in front of me it would be a choise that would be pleasing to him. Now as the days get more complacated the economy gets more unsure making financial decissions are not so easy to make. For months we have been faced with having to make some important financial decissions that seem to be more complicated that usual. I cling to my faith in the Lord and his son Jesus Christ to help us make these choices. Still it is one of the most diffacult things.
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